So I am aggrevated... for many reasons, none of which I can really talk to close people about... which is even more aggrevating...
...sometimes I wish I could just move away... sometimes I wish I could be better at being me... sometimes I wish I really didn't worry what people thought, especially cause I always say I don't... I wish I could feel more accomplished... I wish someone would appreciate me every once in a while... sometimes I just need to feel loved... why am I always the bad person... why do I have to be some nice... why do I have to be so self-destructive... why is it that I feel I need to say, "well my life is not like yours" all the time... I wish that I could not get my hopes up for anything, that way I can never have that 'let down' feeling... why can't I admit I am wrong sometimes... what is it that makes me embarrassing to be around? The way I dress? The way I look? The way I talk? Or is it just all the things that I am not...
